Unrequited love

I swallow my saliva nervously, and rub my clammy hands against my shirt.

I have decided to talk to you, for the first time this whole year. You have probably never known that I existed, though I have always been conscious of yours. Despite the fact that I sit behind you, you have never once turned around to talk to me, or started a conversation. You only talk to your circle of friends, who sit beside you in every single class you have together.

You should know, the moment I first saw you my heartbeat stopped. It was then that I knew I had fallen in love. I didnt know then whether I should go up to talk to you, but now I regret not doing so. Every day, I would watch you quietly from a distance, and it broke my heart to see you talking to another guy and smiling at whatever it said.

I probably dont have a chance with you, but I've gotta try, dont I?

So now, as I walk up towards you, my heart is thumping against my rib-cage, which feels like is going to give away. My legs feel wobbly as I number every step I take towards you.

One.

Two.

Three.

Four.

Five.

At the sixth step, you look at me and your expression changes to one of disgust. I feel like my whole world is crumbling to bits as you turn away sharply and leave me just standing there.

Forever.

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But then again, this is just unrequited love.

Staying away

Since LLil has been writing on the themes of life, how they should be lived according to the way you want and not others, I shall post a short piece on peer pressure.

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I am a solitary figure.

Walking along the sheltered path on the way to the school bus stop after school.

While reading a humongous book through thick, heavy lenses.

I am probably what one would call a typical nerd.

But then, maybe I am.

Splish-splash.

Before I know it, my uniform and shoes are soaking wet and I realise I have been doused from head to toe with drainwater.

Not again.

I know it is no accident. I look up, dreading the faces of those whom I have had numerous nightmares of. There they were, they ghostly faces hovering over me, each one holding a pail just emptied of drainwater. Their mocking smirks almost reveal the terrible extent to which the prank they were about to play on me would lie.

"Stop that."

Sneers and sniggers from the 'it-girls', some squealing in high-pitched voices in mocking imitation of me, "Stop that!" Other students slowly crowd around the join in the fun.

Anger bubbles up inside of me. It is all I can do not to slap their faces to shut them up, but I don't. It would make everything else worse. Or I could possibly get into trouble. Besides, I'd better run away to the washroom before they notice the tears welling up in my eyes.

So I walk away, hastily drying the now flimsy, wet pages of the paperback book in my hands.

As I walk to the toilet, bowing my head in humility, I can hear the whispers of several students who pass me by.

"What a nerd."

"Yeah, she's always carrying that book around! Who does she think she is, a top student?"

"Showoff."

"Nerd."

"Irritating."

"Teacher's pet."

Their cutting words slice through my heart like a knife, but I remain emotionless, because that's how I am supposed to remain – a nobody.

The world is full of untrustworthy people. There is no one to trust. Staying emotionless and distant from others protects me.

At least I won't get hurt that way.
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Love, TFioS

Some stuff about Dr Lum x) of course, this is not in my draft

Shawn Kaihekulani Yamauchi Lum, age 49, was born on 7 April,1963 in Tokyo, Japan. He moved to Hawaii with his two sisters and his parents at the age of 2 and a half. His elder sister is 7 years his senior, and his younger sister 4 years his junior. He is part Chinese and Japanese on his maternal side, and part Hawaiian and Irish on his paternal side. He can speak in English, Chinese, Japanese, Spanish, Bahasa Indonesia and Pidgin, a Hawaiian dialect; although he claims he is currently only fluent in the English language.

Dr Lum did his undergraduate studies at Harvard University, Boston, and completed his PhD from the University of California, Berkeley. He married at a late age of 44 after dating for 10 years with his wife Evelyn Ng Mui Khim. He is currently a lecturer at the National Institute of Singapore and a resident scientists of Raffles Girls’ School (Secondary), which he first joined in 1999.

            During his childhood, his mother worked as a school cafeteria baker, his father a civil servant working in the United States Air Force. He confesses to having a closer relationship with his mother than with his father as his mother only started working 4 years after he was born and spent more time with him than his working father. He has also had a great passion for nature and ecology since young, although he did not have any formal training in biology in school and most of his passion for nature was self-initiated. During his free time, he often read many books animal books, watched animal shows or went outdoors for nature walks to the forest or the nearby beach to bird watch or collect seashells. He also had many pets at home, such as fish, crayfish (the common yabby), pigeons, lizards (specifically anolis), and dogs. He reflects that his unusually large number of pets had either reinforced his interest in nature or been a result of it.

            Despite his great interest in nature, biology had never occurred to Dr Lum as a possible career option until he was halfway through university. In fact, he admits rather sheepishly, he had wanted to be a professional basketball player in Midwest Basketball Academy during his childhood years. It was only after he met Dr Mark Skinner in his 3^rd year of his undergraduate studies that he knew that ecology and botany would be his lifelong career.

Quotes (1) - Moving on: The way I live

Wednesday. February 6, 2013

☃ Keep moving forward! ~Cornelius, Meet the Robinson.

☃ Treasure the present, strive better for the future and forget the past.

☃ Learn from your mistakes, not dwell on it. What's done is done. After all, it can't be changed (unless you have a time machine!)

☃ The past can hurt. But the way I see it, you can either run from it or learn from it. ~Rafiki, The Lion King.

☃ Once you make the decision to move on, don't look back. Your destiny will never be found in the rear view mirror. 

☃ Don't let the burdens from your past be obstacles of your future.

☃ Everything that has a beginning has an end, so forget the past, plan for the future and enjoy the moment. 

Hey writers (: 

I'll be sharing 7 quotes a day (7 is a magic number!). Some of these quotes are my life mottos <3 Some of these quotes are original :D But for the rest, I would try my best to site them (: Do feel free to write a quote down in the comments section! :) Personally, I enjoy reading meaningful life quotes because I can relate to these quotes! So, I hope to share it with y'all :) 

Love,

LLiL(y)

Noise

The flurried typing of keys on keyboards and the droning of the teacher standing in front of the classroom.

Click-click-click-click-click.

Students furiously attack away at their own laptop keyboard while trying in futile attempts to transcript their teacher's words. The classroom is dead silent except for clicks and monologues, which surprisingly, merge very well with one another into one sound.

Noise.

Once in a while, when the teacher stops talking, one can just sit there and be fascinated by the whirring of the fans above or the buzzing of the classroom air-conditioner.

 But no one ever does, because it is just a useless noise that everyone ignores.

Or a symphony of hidden music unheard by none but the talented listeners.

-TFioS <3

Introduction

Hey all(:

This is basically a blog for us to express all our thoughts and creative writing expressions and we can just writing anything that comes to mind. As always, a great piece of work starts with a small idea, so we want to develop our inklings from small ideas to nurture them into bigger ones(:

I can that through writing we can encourage one another, so dont be afraid to give comments/feedback on others' work if you have any!

Love,
TFioS